Conquering A Fear

I left everything familiar this weekend and packed some stuff up and checked into a hotel. I needed to clear my head. I needed to get away. I needed to do something FOR MYSELF BY MYSELF.

This was quite possibly one of the best weekends ever. As well as one of the most difficult. I spent a lot of time thinking and journaling trying to face my problems, feelings, as well as my fears.

This weekend I learned that I'm really good at shutting the world out. I'm perfectly happy secluding myself and keeping to my own devices. I fulfill my social interaction void by hiding behind a computer. This is something I need to work on and I didn't put it off any longer. Today, I faced one of my fears successfully. My fear is going out and doing things by myself. After checking out of my hotel (man, i'm going to miss that sleep number bed and the quiet), I drove myself to a restaurant and sat at a booth and ate ALL ALONE. It was a little bit easier because I had my journal and pen in hand to write down a lot of things I was thinking and feeling at that moment. Once I was done eating, paid my bill and left, I sat in my car and smiled. I DID IT!! So here I am, sharing this MOMENT OF WIN. Brought to you by the bacon avocado burrito at Denny's.